The thing about friends was I always had them
Also, had a hard time keeping them growing up
I didn't understand certain dynamics for a long time
It was obvious to everyone but me
Now I can see it but I won't lie
I bloomed the latest in that understanding
I could feel the mocking nature but when called out
They'd lie
Of course they would lie
I just didn't understand
Do friends really hate each other?
Are we supposed to sabotage one another?
Are we supposed to backstab one another?
Are we supposed to hurt one another?
Am I supposed to despise your existence?
Why?
Do I have to hate myself for you?
Do we need that validation?
When I would leave, I would turn the other cheek
I never wanted to hurt
Didn't even have time to understand retaliations
In hindsight, I resent that I did that
I should have stood up for myself
But that's the thing about self sovereignty
I can choose my own well being
Because I don't fight
I end
I'll trust what was shown
& it's no one else's feigned concern
The irony is that in their plotting, the plans never included me actually walking away
Thinking I was naive because of my heart
Not because I wouldn't eventually figure out what was going on
Betrayal is simply not something I tolerate
You shouldn't either
I'll always reject behaviors that don't reflect my own
Immediately
Swiftly
Precisely
You do not get to assault my spirit and cry wolf to the universe
The Universe witnessed
So I will walk away
Every
Single
Time
There is no compromise when it comes to love and envy
Even secrets told in confidence are still sacred
Your hatred will not kill the love inside me
You did not break me, sisters
You liberated me
So, thank you for the lessons in this life, beautiful sisters
I do not wish to see you in the next
(2020- betrayal perspectives from the 12t house :) for my Vedic girlies <3)
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